While you are praying!

As Christians we live our daily lives by Faith. We are saved by Faith,

For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, (Ephesians 2:8 NKJV)

We believe by Faith that God is with us all the time because He has promised that.

I am with you always, even to the end of the age. (Matthew 28:20 NKJV)

“And the Lord, He is the One who goes before you. He will be with you, He will not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed.”” (Deuteronomy 31:8 NKJV)

When we pray we believe, by Faith, that He will answer our prayers.

“Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them. (Mark 11:24 NKJV)

Sometimes having Faith when we pray  is very difficult, especially if we have been praying for a long time for breakthrough in certain areas of our life and we see nothing happening.  I would like, as an encouragement to look at a passage of scripture from the Old Testament to show that even though we can’t see how God is answering prayer there are wheels in motion to see the breakthrough happen.

I want to look in Exodus and look at the plight of the Israelites under Egyptian rule. The Israelites were in Egypt because of Joseph. (I don’t want to go through the Joseph story here but if you want further encouragement as to how amazing our God is, read from Genesis chapter 37 until the end of the book.) The Israelites are in Egypt and have grown in number and have become a threat. Exodus puts it like this

 But the children of Israel were fruitful and increased abundantly, multiplied and grew exceedingly mighty; and the land was filled with them.  Now there arose a new king over Egypt, who did not know Joseph.  And he said to his people, “Look, the people of the children of Israel are more and mightier than we;  come, let us deal shrewdly with them, lest they multiply, and it happen, in the event of war, that they also join our enemies and fight against us, and so go up out of the land.” (Exodus 1: 7-10 NKJV)

From becoming a free people they are made to be slaves. The Pharaoh, at the time, even ordered the death of new born males to curb the rise in population. It is during this time that we are introduced to Moses who is saved from death by the ingenuity of his mother and is brought up in the Courts of Pharaoh by the Pharaoah’s daughter with his mother as his nurse maid. Let’s just stop there for a second and ponder on that fact. How amazing is God to orchestrate that!! He knew the plight the Israelites were under at this time before time began and had put into place circumstances that would save the child who would eventually lead His people out of bondage and into freedom.

Moses, to make matters a bit more complicated, murders an Egyptian and has to run from Pharaoah’s anger to a country called Midian where he settles down, marries and has a family!!

It is from here that I want us to look at God’s unseen working when it comes to answers to prayer. Let’s have a look at the Israelites;

“Now it happened in the process of time that the king of Egypt died. Then the children of Israel groaned because of the bondage, and they cried out; and their cry came up to God because of the bondage.” (Exodus 2:23 NKJV)

The verse seems to suggest that one day they all decided that they had had enough and so got together in a huge slave prayer meeting and prayed. I can tell you that this calling out to God wasn’t a one off occurrence. You can imagine the prayers daily and nightly that were lifted up. “Save us! Free us! Where are you? Come on God have you forgotten us? You promised us! Remember what You said to Abraham! Don’t leave us here.” etc., etc.

They were doing the same as we do. They were petitioning God. asking for His help. The story goes on,

So God heard their groaning, and God remembered His covenant with Abraham, with Isaac, and with Jacob.  And God looked upon the children of Israel, and God acknowledged them. (Exodus 2:24 – 25NKJV)

The point that I want to make is this,,,,, They didn’t know that was His response. He didn’t suddenly come down from heaven and say “Alright my children, don’t be concerned now, everything will be alright. I am now going to set you free.” They hadn’t a clue and I expect they kept on praying, asking for their freedom but God had heard and from that point the prayer was answered. They wouldn’t know that God answered the prayer until they saw the answer for themselves but God had heard and answered.

The reason that the writer knew God had answered their prayers was because Moses himself wrote most of Exodus and he knew that while the Israelites were praying, God was answering them by calling in on him, via the burning bush while he was in Midian. a couple of hundred kilometres away, watching his father-in-law’s sheep!!

“And the Lord said: “I have surely seen the oppression of My people who are in Egypt, and have heard their cry because of their taskmasters, for I know their sorrows.  So I have come down to deliver them out of the hand of the Egyptians, and to bring them up from that land to a good and large land, to a land flowing with milk and honey,” (Exodus 3: 7-8 NKJV)

The point I want us to see is that while we are praying we haven’t a clue the wheels God has already put in motion to see that prayer fulfilled. Remember He already knows what we are going to say before we say it.

“You know what I am going to say even before I say it, LORD” (Psalm 139:4 NLT)

When you pray God always hears and always answers.

Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us.  And if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we have asked of Him. (1 John 5: 14-15 NKJV)

Be encouraged. Don’t give up. There might be a Moses who at this moment is answering a call of God which is somehow going to answer your prayer or at least contribute to the answer to your prayer. We cannot see the unseen.

““Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him.”” (1 Corinthians 2:9 NKJV)

Do not give up hope. Hope is vital and a gift from God.

“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.” ( Jeremiah 29:11 NKJV )

The next verse is important. God gives us the hope and …

Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. (Jeremiah 29:12 NKJV)

In conclusion, God answered the Israelites’ cries but they had no idea that He had. We often don’t know either until we receive the answer. Faith is believing that God has heard and is faithful to answer. Are you willing to hang on. The answer may be there in the next second. God has answered your prayer without a doubt. Hang in there.

Prayer starter,

Father thank you for Your love for me. Help me to hang on to the hope that You have heard my prayer and that the wheels have been put into motion to see the answer realised.


Immanuel – עִמָּ֫נוּאֵ֫ל

“So all this was done that it might be fulfilled which was spoken by the Lord through the prophet, saying:  “Behold, the virgin shall be with child, and bear a Son, and they shall call His name Immanuel,” which is translated, “God with us.”” (Matthew 1: 22-23 NKJV)

We are coming to a time of the year where the world seems to go quite mad. In the commercial world retailers rely on people spending millions of dollars, shoppersor whatever the currency is in your part of the world, to keep their profit margin in the correct place. We have days like Black Friday when shops put prices at supposedly low levels so that people will queue up in all sorts of weathers to get that special bargain. No this is not going to be one of those watch out for the evils of shopping blogs. I love a bargain probably more than anyone and have been known to queue outside ALDI’s to get one!! Be patient and I will get to the point.

christmas-light-display-of-gingerbread-house-vandusen-botanical-garden-vancouver-british-columbia-canada-128084682-58f4c8c33df78cd3fc192cf5At this time of year we have houses vying for the prize of the best Christmas lights. People spending hundreds of dollars to light up their houses for a few weeks a year. Don’t get me wrong, I love Christmas lights and wish they could be up all year. They make such a difference to the communities we live in.

Okay, so let’s get to the point!! AtChristmas star and birth of Jesus 1 this time of the year we have the opportunity globally to remember what Christmas is all about, and yes,  the primary reason we celebrate at Christmas is to remember the birth of Jesus. It is a time when the world can see that something happened in the little town of Bethlehem (did you see what I did there?? Cue the Christmas Carol!!) Yes that one silent night, once, in Royal David’s City, while shepherds watched their flocks by night, angels from the Realms of Glory sang about the first Noel!! Alright, enough of that. We, as nations, have the opportunity to celebrate the birth of Jesus, and yes, often we miss the point.

I have a feeling though, that as Christians we miss something at Christmas as well. Let’s look at the verse I quoted at the start:

“So all this was done that it might be fulfilled which was spoken by the Lord through the prophet, saying:  “Behold, the virgin shall be with child, and bear a Son, and they shall call His name Immanuel,” which is translated, “God with us.”” (Matthew 22: 22-23 NKJV)

“All this was done” – First of all what was the “All this”? Before this verse we have the story of Mary becoming pregnant and Joseph being visited by the angel to tell him that God was the Father. This would be mind blowing in itself. but the angel also reminds Joseph of his lineage. The angel calls him, Joseph son of David. Matthew, the gospel writer kindly puts this into context by telling us the lineage of Jesus from Abraham all the way to Jesus’ earthly father Joseph. As Matthew puts it:

“So all the generations from Abraham to David are fourteen generations, from David until the captivity in Babylon are fourteen generations, and from the captivity in Babylon until the Christ are fourteen generations.” (Matthew 1: 17)

Putting it simply, Matthew is telling us that all that has gone before, 42 generations of Jewish history has led to this point. “So all this was done“!! This I find incredible, all that had gone before led to this time in history. All those amazing stories that we read in the Old Testament led to the birth of this one child.  Abraham and Isaac. David and Goliath, Daniel, Jonah, Job etc etc. It sort of puts our celebrations into perspective doesn’t it? But that is not all that this verse says. The verse says that it was all done to fulfil a prophecy from the Old Testament. Just to clarify there was no Old Testament when Matthew was writing!!!! For him it was the Law and the Prophets. The prophet in question was Isaiah.

Therefore the Lord Himself will give you a sign: Behold, the virgin shall conceive and bear a Son, and shall call His name Immanuel. (Isaiah 7: 14 NKJV)

For me this verse holds the key to Christmas and why all our frivolity mocks what actually happened. Jesus is called Immanuel which, Matthew kindly tells us non Hebrew speakers, means God with us. Don’t you think this is remarkable. This baby, was God with us. The God who created the Universe, for that short period of time, was actually with us in bodily form. The God of all power and might was living here with us. How can anything we do at Christmas bring recognition to this fact. The Apostle John in his Gospel puts it incredibly simply. Here are some verses from the first chapter,

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.  He was in the beginning with God.  All things were made through Him, and without Him nothing was made that was made. In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it.”  (v1-5 NKJV)

He was in the world, and the world was made through Him, and the world did not know Him.  He came to His own and His own did not receive Him.” (v 10 – 11 NKJV)

And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we beheld His glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father, full of grace and truth. (v 14 NKJV)

What I would like to suggest this Christmas is that we bring some “awe” into our celebrations . Some wonder, wonderment, amazement, astonishment, admiration, reverence, veneration, respect. That we are filled with wonder, wonderstruck, awestruck, amazed, filled with amazement, astonished, filled with astonishment, lost for words, open-mouthed. Let us not take this for granted, God came down to earth and lived among us and for why? To secure our salvation. To make sure we have the opportunity to be in relationship with Him. He wants us for His own. Immanuel came to be our salvation.

When Jesus was only a few days old, Mary and Joseph took him to the temple to offer a sacrifice as was the Jewish custom. When they were there they encountered a Godly man named Simeon who prophesied over Jesus.

 he took Him up in his arms and blessed God and said: “Lord, now You are letting Your servant depart in peace, According to Your word;  For my eyes have seen Your salvation which You have prepared before the face of all peoples,  A light to bring revelation to the Gentiles, And the glory of Your people Israel.” (Luke 2: 28 -32 NKJV)

Let us this Christmas ponder on the life of Jesus, God Incarnate, Immanuel. Let’s look through the gospels and see what an amazing God we serve. Perhaps start in John chapter 13.

Jesus, knowing that the Father had given all things into His hands, and that He had come from God and was going to God, rose from supper and laid aside His garments, took a towel and girded Himself.  After that, He poured water into a basin and began to wash the disciples’ feet, and to wipe them with the towel with which He was girded. (v 3-5)

Immanuel was willing to take the position of a servant, willing to kneel and perform the menial tasks a slave would do. Why?……… because He is a God who loves.

 He who does not love does not know God, for God is love.  In this the love of God was manifested toward us, that God has sent His only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through Him.  In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. (1 John 4: 8-11 NKJV)

This is what God’s love looks like and this is what Jesus came to show us,

Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;  does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;  does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;  bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.  Love never fails. (1 Corinthians 13: 4-8a)

Have the most wonderful Christmas, filled with His love for you.



Perception Part 3

“The mind is a wonderful tool, but a terrible master. Sometimes what God is doing will offend the mind, but the spirit will be able to discern His presence. Don’t reduce God to what you can comprehend!” (Bill Johnson, Bethel Church, Redding, California)

I love this quote. How often do we reduce God to something we can understand. As soon as we do that we create Him in our image. Blaise Pascal a French philosopher wrote

“God made man in his own image and man returned the compliment.”

Basically the way we think of God diminishes Him because we try to make him small like us. We perceive Him to be a God who reacts like us, who thinks like us, whose logic is the same as ours. Our perception of Him has made Him much smaller than He is. Especially in the area of His love for us. Personally I don’t want a God who is similar than me. I want a God who can help me when I get into a mess and is not perturbed at my messes. He doesn’t bat an eyelid when I make mistakes because all I have done or will do is already known to Him. Not because it is preordained but because my God is so big He knows what I am going to do before I do it!! Psalm 139 puts it perfectly,

“O Lord, You have searched me and known me.  You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thought afar off.  You comprehend my path and my lying down, And are acquainted with all my ways.  For there is not a word on my tongue, But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether.  You have hedged me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me.   Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; It is high, I cannot attain it.” (Psalm 139:1-6 NKJV)

Verse 4 puts it succinctly,

Even before there is a word on my tongue [still unspoken], Behold, O Lord, You know it all” ( Psalm 139:4 Amplified Bible)
He even knows what you are going to say before you say it. That is so cool!!! Yet, His love you cannot and will not change! His love for you does not depend on what you do because He knows it already. He didn’t choose you, knowing that one day you were going to mess it up so that He couldn’t love you any more. He knows you from the beginning to the end and His love does not waver!
Don’t let your perceived experiences of God , diminish who He is in your life.
“Who has known the mind of the Lord? Or who has been his counsellor?” (Romans 11:34 NIV).
Often we think that God’s plan for us has pitfalls and it is to our detriment but that is not what He says about Himself,
“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.” (Jeremiah 29:11 NKJV)
Declare this over your life today:
“Great is our Lord and mighty in power; his understanding has no limit.” (Psalm 147:5)
His understanding is without limit. beyond comprehension, inexhaustible, infinite, boundless or unfathomable.
Remember that it is not what we do for God that is important but what we believe about Him. He is a mighty and infinite God who is is interested in the finite detail of or lives. Be willing to allow God to change how we perceive Him. Often we have been “churched’ into believing certain aspects about God’s character that are certainly not based on the God that Jesus came to show or the God in His word.
It is important that we look to Jesus to see the nature of God.
If you had known Me, you would have known My Father also; and from now on you know Him and have seen Him. (John 14:7 NKJV)
If you want to know who God is look at the life of Jesus.
 I and My Father are one. (John 10:30 NKJV)
Read the Gospels and the Letters in the New Testament written by those people who knew Jesus or who had encountered Him as in Saul/Paul. You will see how great is our God! We sing it and shout it but then somehow live our lives as if He isn’t that great. My God is worth trusting, how about yours?
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I Am Your God!!

“I am Your God!” he said.

I was having coffee with a good friend of mine and we were just chatting when I heard him say, “I am Your God!” I didn’t think much of it but then he repeated it and he repeated it. He just kept on saying, “I am Your God! I am Your God! I am Your God!” I actually began to question the sanity of my friend. We literally where in a crowded local coffee shop and he wasn’t talking quietly. All I could hear was him saying, “I am Your God!” and then suddenly I found myself crying, Tears rolling down my cheeks. I suddenly started to hear what he was saying. I began to hear God through him. God was saying to me, “I am Your God!” I realised that I had forgotten to let Him be my God. I just couldn’t stop crying but I knew this was a very important statement for me to grasp.

“I am Your God!” The first words that started to sink in were “Your God!” I think this was was one of the reasons that God revealed this in a full coffee shop. Even though I knew God was God of all things and that included the people in the shop, He was reminding me that He was my God as an individual, “Your God!” “Your God!” “Your God!” “I am Your God!” His love is inclusive but also exclusive!! Somehow in my busyness I had forgotten that He wanted to be and was, MY God. How easily it had been to take-back the reins of my life, hence the tears.

After the coffee I was able to go home and ponder what God had been saying. It was simple really……. He wants to be my God. It is a longing of His, that was why He made me, it was for His purposes and not mine. God knows what is best for me a lot more than I do. He longs for me to be in a position where I can trust Him for everything because then I will be able to live in the abundance He has for me. I don’t live in abundance basically because I keep areas of my life to myself.

I came home and saw that there were areas of my life that I simply didn’t trust God with, especially areas where I had been hurt at some point. Just a thought…….  ask your Heavenly Father what areas of your life you are holding on to. He will tell you and then love you so much that you can’t help but give them over to Him. That is what I did. I sat and just asked Him. I was very honest with Him and pointed out the areas where I had felt let down. God is big enough to cope with that. I looked deeply and saw areas where things had gone radically wrong, in relationships, work, church and my general walk with Him. How can I trust You God when these things just didn’t turn out? How can I give You areas when my life may fall apart?

As I spent time with this, the first fact I realised was that no matter what had happened I was still talking to God. even after all the hurt and the failure. He was still in my life and cared enough about me to tell me very clearly that He was/is my God. So no matter what, His word was true:

 And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28 NKJV)

The second fact was that many of the areas that had appeared not to go as I thought they should, were aspects of my life where I had taken over the control in the guise of it being “God’s Will”. How many of us do that, or is it just me? Many times when situations started to go pear shaped I didn’t necessarily turn to my Heavenly Father for help but blindly sorted out what to do next from my flesh or my soul, in other words from an emotional level. There is no doubt that God has the right way.i-am-the-lord-your-god

Any way, I don’t want to get bogged down in all this, the fact is that it is not about me or you, it is about Him! “I AM YOUR GOD!!!” He has chosen me. I am hand picked. The Great I Am has selected me to be His child and I need to give Him permission to be that for me.

There are many scriptures where God says I am the God ….. of your father—the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob, ….. who brought you out of the land of Egypt,….of Bethel

There are many scriptures where God declares He is our Lord  specifically. Let us look at some and start to declare them in our lives.

“Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.” (Isaiah 41:10 NKJV)

“I will walk among you and be your God, and you shall be My people.” (Leviticus 26:12 NKJV)
 “I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, to be your God: I am the Lord your God.” (Numbers 15:41 NKJV)
I like this verse because it shows us that the reason He brought us out of bondage was to be our God. He cares enough to bring us out of the areas that bind us so that He can be God to me. love me and protect me.
“You shall not be terrified of them; for the Lord your God, the great and awesome God, is among you.” (Deuteronomy 7:21 NKJV)
“For the Lord your God walks in the midst of your camp, to deliver you and give your enemies over to you; therefore your camp shall be holy, that He may see no unclean thing among you, and turn away from you.”  (Deuteronomy 23:14 NKJV)
“I am the Lord your God And there is no other. My people shall never be put to shame.” (Joel 2:27 NKJV)
If we can understand how important it is to recognise that it is His work in us and that His whole desire is to be our God then we can see that nothing can stop us. Not even us!!
So we may boldly say: “The Lord is my helper; I will not fear. What can man do to me?” (Hebrews 13:6 NKJV)
I realise now that the more I take control, I receive less of Him. To receive more of Him I have to let go. It is worth it. He knows our future. He knows what lies ahead. He knows what we will need in the future. Only His love sustains.
” We must learn to live before an audience of One. Receiving the nod from our Master has great power in the hearts of those who love Him. It has more power than the approval of all others.” (Mike Bickle from a talk on the Divine Kiss based on the Song of Songs)



Be Ready!!

These are two recent prophecies that I thought I would share.

There is to be a burning away but the flames will be preparing seeds for the rain! The rainfall will come! Rain on rain and it will water the seed! The seed because of the burning will grow quickly! Putting down roots in soil that has also seen burning but which is so fertile that the root grows deeply and develops foundation allowing the new shoots to develop! Shoots and shoots! Quick growth! Strong growth! A plentiful harvest! The burning was important! Allow God to burn away the old growth for the new to come!


I look to the hills from where comes my help! My help comes from the Lord! But the mountains have been moved, they have been razed to the ground! The entry for the Lord has been made ready! The angels have been working. The way is prepared!!! The Highway from Heaven is made! A Freeway with no lanes! Ready for the King of Heaven and Heaven’s Armies to match down!

I look to the hills and they are replaced by the freeway of God! Heaven is on the move! He is on the move!

We can hear the shouts! The shouts have been obscured by the mountains but no longer! The Shout of Heaven Roars out! The Shout of Heaven Roars out! The Shout of Heaven Roars out! The King is riding! The King is riding! He is on His charger! (Seven eyes and seven horns) A flaming sword in His hand! A crown of fire on His Head! Fire burns in His eyes! Flames of truth burn from His mouth!

The King of Glory comes! Hail to the King of Glory! The Lord Full of Glory! The Lord in All His Glory! Glory to You Lord King of Glory! Glory, Laud and Honour to you!

Perception Part 2!!

Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, (Eph 3:20)

I want you to declare this over you as you read it. “My God can do far more abundantly than I can ask or think because of His power that works in me.” Declare it again and again until Holy Spirit writes it on your heart. Synonyms for abundantly include – copiously, plentifully, amply, profusely, exuberantly, prolifically, luxuriantly, in profusion, in abundance, in great quantity, in large quantities, in plenty, aplenty, in huge numbers, freely, extensively, everywhere, all over the place, affluently, bounteously, plenteously, lavishly. This is who your God is. We need to raise our perception and expectation of who God is.  At this point, if you haven’t read the last post on Perception, please do.

Is there a limit on what you believe God can do for you? Ask Holy Spirit to show you. Be open and honest because God knows anyway. We put limitations on God all the time, it is nothing we should be condemned about, Holy Spirit wants to change our Spiritual Perceptions of God. It is something to be excited about and not scared. Ask Holy Spirit to invade your dreams with visions of the Greatness of God in your life.

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“My God can do far more abundantly than I can ask or think”! He is a Huge God. The Heavens cannot contain Him.

The Holy Spirit is changing mindsets at this time and we need to allow Him to do that. There are times when we become scared to allow Holy Spirit to change things in us because we are secure in what we think we know of God, but there is a new move of God and we need to see God’s fullness to partake in that new move.

I really feel we are at the cusp of something new! ( isn’t that a great word? Cusp! It means A point of transition between two different states! Say it again, CUSP!) Anyway, we are at one…… a cusp that is!! A transition that is so important that it is going to change the way the world sees God forever. It will never be the same again. It is the time of Reformation. If we continue to see life through our eyes we will miss it. We have to start looking through Spiritual eyes and see into the Spiritual Realm.

We were created in God’s image. We are three in one just as He is. Body, Soul and Spirit. Often we are very strong in our body and soul but our Spiritual side is weaker. We are Spiritual beings having an earthly experience and therefore we have to exercise our Spiritual Perception to see into the Spiritual Realm. How did Jesus see what the Father was doing except through His Spiritual Perception. Jesus came down and was totally man, He was like us in every way except that He saw the way that Father God saw. We can do the same because we have Holy Spirit living in us.

In her Vinedresser series, Theresa Croft uses this phrase,

“You have a song that only you can sing”

This is so powerful! Unless we sing the song that God has written for us, the people around us, friends, families, our community, our towns and cities will miss out. No one else can sing your song! Therefore we need to have our eyes opened. To have our perception changed. We need to experience life through our Spiritual Senses.

Prayer Starter

Dear Holy Spirit, show me the areas in my life where I limit you, where I limit Father and Jesus. Expand my experience of you! Change my perception. Let me experience life through Spiritual Senses. Allow me to sing the song that only I can sing.


“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord“For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts.” (Isaiah 55: 8-9 NKJV)

I was praying one day and I saw God standing in front of me. He was my size and He looked at me. He then started to move away but as He did, He got bigger and bigger and bigger. I couldn’t comprehend how big He was. This is the opposite of what our senses have been told. We know that a twenty foot tree looks taller the closer it is and conversely, the same tree seems smaller the further away it is. What God was showing me was that my perception of things, is not God’s. He doesn’t look at things the same way as I do. My perception needs to change to Spritual Perception. His thoughts are not the same as my thoughts.

God does not think as we do! Let me say it again – God does not think as we do. Last time – God does not think as we do. Has it sunk in? We bring God down to our way of perceiving things. It is easy for us to picture the God who walked with Adam in the cool of the evening. That God is relatable to. We can see God as a Father especially if our Father’s were a good role model but what about the God who made this……?


There are a 100 trillion of these in the universe.


Each one of these bright stars is larger than our Sun. God made all this. That God lives in you, in the form of the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit was there when all this was made and He lives in you!

“Great is our Lord, and mighty in power;
His understanding is infinite.” (Psalm 147:5 NKJV)

God’s understanding is infinite and yet so often we make His ways finite. King Solomon grasped it when He was building the temple.

“But will God indeed dwell on the earth? Behold, heaven and the heaven of heavens cannot contain You. How much less this temple which I have built!” (1 Kings 8:27 NKJV. Also 2 Chronicles 6:18)

All those 100 trillion solar systems are too small for Him. Heaven and all the heavens are too small for our Father.

“Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the Lord, The Creator of the ends of the earth,Neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable.  He gives power to the weak, And to those who have no might He increases strength.  Even the youths shall faint and be weary, And the young men shall utterly fall,  But those who wait on the Lord Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40: 28-31)

How do you see God at the moment? Ask God to show you who He is at the moment to you. If He is small, ask God to forgive you for not seeing who He really is and ask Him to show you how big He actually is.

Remember, God does not think as we do!! So we need to allow the Holy Spirit to show us how He perceives the circumstances we are in. I can tell you now they will be different perceptions.

Just to summarise….. It is wonderful to see God as a God who wants to walk with us. It is amazing to recognise that He is our Heavenly Dad and His touch is so Gentle. It is even more awesome to see that this God who relates to us so intimately is too big for 100 trillion Solar Systems. We need to start to use Spiritual Perception and not our natural perception. To do this we need the help of the Holy Spirit to see the way He sees.

Things are not always as they seem!!

Prayer Starter

Precious Holy Spirit, thank you that you live in me and can’t wait to show me how wonderfully gigantic Heavenly Father is. Let me see Him as you see Him. Let my perceotions become Spiritual ones. Holy Spirit ones. Let my Spiritual senses grow.



“For the oppression of the poor, for the sighing of the needy,
Now I will arise,” says the Lord;
“I will set him in the safety for which he yearns.” (Psalm 12:5 NKJV)

This verse is written on my heart.This was one of those verses that leap out at you when you read it, even though it may have been read many times before. I was in a dark place in my life, I had  been reading through Psalms so I decided to carry on from where I had left off, which turned out to be Psalm 12. When I got to verse 5 I realised that God was speaking directly to me. This verse became mine. The Holy Spirit gave me the faith to realise that this was not just a general promise but a specific promise to my life. The “HIM”  in the verse was me.

The wonderful aspect of this verse is that I have never doubted that it is for me. I declare it over myself. I remind myself of it when I am feeling down. I know that God is placing me in the safety which I have always yearned.

Let’s have a look at that word yearn. italian-proverb-quote-one-is-never-too-old-to-yearn The dictionary definition says “have an intense feeling of longing for something, typically something that one has lost or been separated from.” Synonyms include, long for, want, hanker, desire, pine, ache languish, hunger, crave, thirst, hope etc.

Now we’ll look at the word safety. Dictionary says “the state or quality of being safe; freedom from the occurrence or risk of injury, danger, or loss”. Synonyms include, cover, defence, refuge, immunity, sanctuary, safeguard, assurance preservation etc.

If you mix and match the synonyms of safety and yearning together you have the picture of my life before God gave me this verse. Hungry for refuge! Thirsty for assurance! Craving sanctuary! Longing for covering!

What I want you to realise is that I was a Spirit filled, God loving man. I was still, however, longing for something. I hadn’t found the safety I yearned for. How can that be you may ask? Even if you didn’t ask, I am still going to tell you !! I believe I was still yearning because, firstly,  I was looking in the wrong place for the answer! I kept on looking for people to make me safe, to give me security and comfort.hqdefault1 It’s acceptable, as a child, to look to the people around you to keep you safe but as you grow older it becomes a bit of an issue. The danger is that you become co-dependent on those around you and they easily let you down because they are human. Sadly this is true even if you are looking for security from the people in your church! For me rejection appeared to be the norm. I knew in my head that God loved me but I didn’t understand what that meant in my heart. I don’t think I understood what love was all about.

Through the verse, God showed me it was His job to place me in security.

Now I will arise,” says the Lord; “I will set him in the safety for which he yearns.” (Psalm 12:5 NKJV)

It is His job alone. All I needed to do was place myself in the position to receive it. I literally had to stop searching for my needs and wants to be met in the way that I thought they should be. I had to trust that God actually did know best!!

This brings me to the second reason for me not receiving the fullness of God’s love. I still felt that it was up to me to show that I deserved God’s love. Somewhere  I believed that I had to earn it. Even though I knew Jesus died on the cross for me, I felt that for God to love me fully I mustn’t make mistakes and fall into the same sin time and time again. If I did. I obviously couldn’t be loved by God. Basically I was telling Jesus that although He died on the cross for me, it wasn’t enough and I had to do my share. This is such a lie of the enemy. When Jesus said from the cross “It is Finished!” He meant it. There was nothing else to be done.

“So when Jesus had received the sour wine, He said, “It is finished!” And bowing His head, He gave up His spirit.” (John 19:30 NKJV)

There is a teaching prevalent in many churches that if you keep sinning and asking God for forgiveness in the same area that actually you can’t be meaning it because you wouldn’t keep doing it. This is not the truth. God loves you. Keep bringing your issues to God and He will deal with them in His time and in His way. Your journey is unique. You are unique.

If you are a person who is looking for someone to fulfil your needs I can tell you from experience that you will not find it. You may be expecting your friends or your spouse or family or your brothers and sisters in Christ to do it. You will be disappointed. There is only one who can fill this gap and He is your Heavenly Father.

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. (Psalm 23:1 NKJV)

If you are yearning, longing, wanting, hankering, desiring, pining, aching, languishing, hungry, craving, thirsty, hoping for love, cover, defence, refuge, immunity, sanctuary, safeguard, assurance preservation etc. then I urge you to seek Him and ask Him to show you how much He loves you. Seek Him in His word. Perhaps start in Psalms and ask Holy Spirit to make reveal what your Heavenly Father says about you.

I want you to declare this over your life each day:b25346e3af8bbb9d89d01f8a19f5b9e6

“There is nothing I can do today that will make God love me more. His love for me is always complete! He loves me 100% all of the time!!”

This is a great verse,

“I know that whatever God does, It shall be forever. Nothing can be added to it, And nothing taken from it. God does it, that men should fear before Him.” (Ecclesiastes 3:14 NKJV)

So to conclude. Whatever you are longing for, whether it be fame, fortune, success, friends, fulfilment etc go to God first and then everything will fall into place and He will be the person who fills the longing.

“But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.” (Matt 6:33 NKJV)



OH! Shame

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I have a headache – “OH! shame”

We lost the game – “OH! shame””

I lost my job – “OH! shame”

I failed my exam – “OH! shame”

We’re not together any more – “OH! shame”

There are so many times in our lives when we have the word shame spoken over us. Here areHall-of-Shame-Futuremarks-3DMark-de-lists-HTC-and-Samsung-for-cheating some common shame idioms:

“For shame! Hide one’s face in shame, put someone to shame, shame of it, shame on you, it’s a shame, it’s a crying shame, don’t you feel any shame? I am ashamed of you, you shame me, what a shame, such a shame, bow your head in shame, go to the shame corner, you bring me shame.” 

The list goes on. We seem to have been brought up to feel shame. People have spoken shame into us so much and so often that for some people it has become the norm. I was brought up feeling ashamed to be me. One of my Mum’s favourite sayings was, “Why can’t you be more like Paul Taylor?” Paul was my best friend! We lived in he same street. Went to the same school but he was cleverer than me and was in a higher class.  I tell you I spent my life trying to be someone else because I knew that I wasn’t enough for my Mum. I needed to be like Paul Taylor. All it spoke to me was “Shame you are you!”

Firstly I tell this story to warn you about the words that come out of your mouth. All words are powerful. Be careful what you say to your children.

The tongue can bring death or life;  those who love to talk will reap the consequences. (Proverbs 18:21 NLT)

Secondly I tell the story about Paul Taylor because it taught me that shame only comes from one place and that is the enemy. My Mum started the Paul Taylor story but the enemy took it to a whole new level, He brought me into shame. I wasn’t the only one he did this to. Adam and Eve started us on the journey. Remember the Story in Genesis chapter 3. Adam and Eve are tempted by the devil and succumb to eating the fruit. What is the first thing they feel? That’s right…. SHAME!!

At that moment their eyes were opened, and they suddenly felt shame at their nakedness. So they sewed fig leaves together to cover themselves. (Gen3:7 NLT)

One minute they were okay and the next they knew shame. All I can say is thanks for nothing. When I get to heaven I am going to seek out the man and woman without belly buttons and give them a piece of my mind!! Just kidding!!! I digress… psychologists today call it the ‘shame Spiral’ This is exactly what it is, a spiral. It started with the fruit and then, as with Adam and Eve, it just spirals out of control. The outcome was the same for them as it is for all of us. Separation from a loving Father. One minute they are walking in the garden with their Father the next they are hiding from Him, naked and full of shame. When we live ashamed we cut ourselves of from God’s total love.

One of the saddest verses in scripture is in Genesis Chapter 3,

“But the LORD God called to the man, “Where are you?” “ (Gen 3:9 NLT)

You can feel the Father’s heart. You can hear His heart break. “Where are you?”

His children were hiding from Him! When we feel shame it causes us to hide from God and those around us. It often causes us to be isolated. Shame can be a killer. Suicide is often a result of people not being able to bear the shame or not wanting others to see their shame.

I believe there is only one true answer to stop the shame spiral and that is dwelling in the love of God and knowing what He says about us. Let me share with you how God broke the spiral in me. To do this I have to go back to Paul Taylor!! May God bless him wherever he is now!! I grew up believing I wasn’t good enough. If only I could be like someone else then I could find love. This became a major reason for my mental illness. I had to find the person that I needed to be, to be loved. I was never enough. My relationships proved it. My life echoed it. I sought out people to love me and to do that I took on their identity. I liked what they liked. I wanted what they wanted.

I think one of the saddest things was that actually I was a good kid. All through my teens I went to church three times a Sunday. I loved God. I never really rebelled. When I left home to train to be a teacher my first thought was to find other Christians and a good church. I still wasn’t enough though. My mistakes in life, my sin, was amplified. It just showed that I needed to be a different person. Shame for being you! Is all I heard. Shame for being you! Even church told me that I needed to be ashamed of who I was. In fact for a long period of time I stopped going to church because I felt no point. I could never be enough! I knew God loved me, that Jesus died for me and wanted me but somehow I couldn’t get out of the spiral. The Spiral got so out of control that in August 2015  I ended up again in a mental Institution after a failed suicide attempt. I have already mentioned this in previous posts and I do it again not for anyone to feel sorry for me but to see that if God can do something miraculous with someone in a Mental Hospital He can do it for you in your situation.

God began to show me who I was. He showed me I was unique. The key for me was that I started to believe what God said about me in His word. I started declaring what God said about me in His word over my life. Declaring what God says about you is an important part of seeing who you are. There are so many people around who are willing to declare other things over you  that you need to start to counter that by listening to what your Heavenly Father says and begin speaking it over your own life. Start by declaring these verse from Psalm 139 and when you do ask the Holy Spirit to come and make them real for you.

“For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvellous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skilfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there were none of them. How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand; When I awake, I am still with You.” (Psalm 139: 13-18 NKJV)
Make the declarations personal:
My Heavenly Father formed my inward parts.


My Heavenly Father covered me in my mother’s womb.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Marvellous are Your works, and so I must be Marvellous.
I was not hidden from You when I was made in secret.
Your eyes saw who I was even before I was formed.
Every day you have for me was already written down even before I was born.
You think about me all the time. 
You think I am precious.
You will never leave me.
There is no shame mentioned is there? God is not ashamed of you, so why should you feel shame. God knows more about you than you do, so start believing what He says about you. You see, when Jesus died on the cross He took our shame and bore it himself:

 looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. (Hebrews 12:2 NKJV)

Every thing about the cross was shameful.

He is despised and rejected by men,
A Man of sorrows and acquainted with grief.
And we hid, as it were, our faces from Him;
He was despised, and we did not esteem Him. (Isaiah 93:3 NKJV)

As it is written:“Behold, I lay in Zion a stumbling stone and rock of offence,
And whoever believes on Him will not be put to shame.”” (Romans 9:33 NKJV)

If Jesus was willing enough to carry our shame, surely we need to let ours go. If we are still going to carry the shame around it is as if we are saying “Thank you Jesus but I can actually manage fine without you”!!

So Let’s stop living like this:


And start living in this:


God’s Glory for us. Start declaring. Have a look at the posts on this blog about declarations and also search the Web. There are some great sites out there. We have no excuse for living a second rate life. Jesus lives in us:

“I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” (Gal 2:20 NLT)

We also live in Him in Heavenly places. There is no shame in Heaven so don’t let the enemy put you on the shame spiral any more.

“And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus,” (Eph 2:6 NLT)

Here are some more verses you can make into declarations about yourself.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new. (2 Cor 5:17 NKJV)

I am in Christ therefore I am a new Creation.
The Old has gone therefore my shame has gone.

I am completely new.

 “But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvellous light; (1 Peter 2:9 NKJV)

I am chosen.
I belong to a royal priesthood.
I belong to a holy nation therefore God sees me as holy,
I am called out of darkness.

I live in His marvellous light.

Make some declarations from the following verses:

For you died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God.”  (Col 3:3 NKJV)

But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, to those who believe in His name: (John 1:12 NKJV)

and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with Him, that we may also be glorified together. (Rom 8:17 NKJV)

But thanks be to God, who always leads us in triumph in Christ, and manifests through us the sweet aroma of the knowledge of Him in every place. (2 Cor 2:14)

Always remember who you are!!